♥GLENNYS: crash and burn

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Hmmm... Had dance at NUS from 12 till 3 den met up wid Jap to cut me hair! LOL! Yup.. his my hairstylist of da day! Its cool and nice haha all thanks to him..Mr. JAPstarr*LAmb* >.<

Erm..got another dance practice tmr at esplanade haha so looking forward to it! Den merayap at town wid some ppl..go figure it out hehe!

Nothing much to say now..dats it aite!

Legong ppl....woohoo!>.<

6:41 pm

Hmmm.. not been bloggin lately. Sorry guys..got no time la. Alot of things happen dats all..wen out wid Iqbal, jap[kambing boi] and his wierd frens to da gig at sub-station last saturday. Saw Dan der moshing and being phsycho LOL! Eur funnie! haha... wasted my freaking money.. i could had jus selit in but den too late, da ppl at da counter saw me oledi..hais.

We didn stay till da last band..cus it was kinda boring. I was like playing taiti wid dem lor sheesh!..which was much more fun. Like DUH!..Den before we left..a bunch of PUNKS came crashing in da gig. Dey were definately making a fool of demselves... everyone who were in da gig jus stood aside while da punks moshed each other in da centre..wat the!!! Pathetic shit head..bodoh pantat siak dey all haha! In da end dey were kicked out from da place LOL!

We headed down to esplanade after dat...slacked at da rooftop. Shared some lame jokes... da others were rubbing two stones together trying to create..'fire' haha..Legong siak dey all! Nothing else better to do. It was getting late and dat jap guy wasn allowed to go back home late anyway so we headed home.

Da next day..i fell sick up till today. So i jus stayed home.. woke up at 12:30 yest den watched tv...den talked to Dinah on da fon..den rot and rot. Now Im at my frens place, obviousli using da com kakaka budget! Stooopid legong! Anway...im bored now. Going back home soon i guess...

Oh well..adios peeps!

Watever!

4:48 am

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Dis are da confessions of a broken heart.. Did eu ever love me?...
Ders no use crying over a spilled milk now! Arghh..WTF! I hate myself!! May i burn in hell...=[

Woke up at 8am today. Went to skul to check which class im posted to. Walao! I didn get my first chose siak! I wanted Chem and Bio..but nooo i was posted to da chem and physics class..hais..guess i should work hard for my physics next yr..cus i totali suck at it. Like totalli!
Anyway..guess wat..hehe my lil cutey fren NAz is going to be me classmate next yr!!!! Hehe cool siak! OH my gawd! I cant wait. But dat sickining Nabil is going to be in my class too..so im gonna get hell next yr..from him..prepare babes!

Heard dat der are some sec3 students retaining and will be in my class too..lol! How to concentrate siak..wid all those monkeys! Sheesh! Give me and da others a break will eu..LOL! Nah..jus kidding eu guys. We wont treat eu differently.. i promise infact..WE promise=] hehe..

Im at Dinahs house now... going back somewer in da afternoon. Hmm.. stayed home da whole of yest and not going out today too... its raining..and i hope it wont stop. Some how im startin to love da rain...so please..don go.=[

As for now...Im bored and i miss YOU! Yes..YOU!=[ hais..

Fuck my life!!

4:00 am

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Don't baby, don't let it go

Just let it die

With no goodbyes

Details don't matter

We both paid the price

Tears in my eyes

You know sometimes

It'd be like that baby

Now everytime I see you

I pretend I'm fine

When I wanna reach out to you

But I turn and I walk and I let it ride

Baby I must confess

We were bigger than anything

Remember us at our best

And don't forget about

Late nights, playing in the dark

And waking up inside my arms

Boy, you'll always be in my heart and

I can see it in your eyes

You still want it

So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience

Nothing can compare to your first true love

So I hope this will remind you

When it's for real, it's forever

So don't forget about us

There's only one me and you

And how we used to shine

No matter what you go through

We are one, that's a fact

That you can't deny

So baby we just can't let

The fire pass us by

Forever we'd both regret

So don't forget about

And if she's got your head all messed up now

That's the trickery

She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be

I bet she can't do like me

She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

Don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever

So don't forget about us.

1:08 pm

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Everybody knows that I was such a fool
To ever let go of you, but baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there
And you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do
Just to tell you face-to-face
I was lying to myself
Now I'm dying in this hell
Boy I know you're mad
I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

If you can save these tears from crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man
But baby here I am

=[

7:00 am

Friday, November 18, 2005

Feeling very dreadful lately..Didn hav da mood to tok..Couldn sleep at nite cus i was thinking too much abt him. Everything was abt him, him and him..I cant take it anymore. Every morning i wake up feeling so lonely so alone. Hais...=[ All i do is cry and wait for him to reply my msgs. Cry in da morning, in da afternoon and nite. I am alone. Alone now, alone tmr and forever....= [ sob2.

I realli wish i could turn back da time wen we were together. So happy.. sharing da fun and laughter and all. I miss those days.

Ken..i reali love eu=[...and im realli very sorry.

Eu may see me laughing..but da fact is dat im hiding my feelings. Cus deep inside..im feeling the misery.

I won't let this love, I won't let this love die, I won't let it die
There is only one thing that matters this time
At the hands of judgment I won't let it die, no sacrifice, regrets left behind,
I won't let it die

Now i live in regrets. I regreted everything.=[
Im more of da fool to leave eu..=[ i am da fool... im really sorry..

Up to my eyes
When I'm seeing without you, without you
Up to my heart
When I'm bleeding without you, without you

Misery...

4:53 am

Thursday, November 17, 2005

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

Please forgive me=[

8:00 am

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wow! I finally got my results today! Woohoo! So happy siak..although i did badly for some subject..i don care..as long as i get to da next stage of my freaking miserable skul life! =]

Broke up wid Ken today after 5 months plus,plus.. 15 November 2005.
Hais..oh da sadness..=[
Its all my fault..its all me i noe.
I don wan him to suffer anymore...
If im da one who is suffering den i don care.
All i care abt is him..him..and him..=[

I so wan to change but i cant.
Its a habit..and a bad one indeed.
I've talked to alien..Dinahs bro..
He's experienced enuf to tell me wat to do..
He gave me two choices..
Either to leave him or to stop lying.
I told him i1ll choose da second one...
But i don think it will work..cus he doesnt trust me anymore and ders no hope!
Its difficult to get his trust back for me...=[

I checked his blog..and i can see dat he has been toking abt me.
It hurts i noe..but i guess he hurts more.=[
Im sorry baby.. its over now. Eur free from misery.
Hope eu and eur frens stay together *FOREVER*...
As long as eur happy...
Well all i noe is dat i wont be happy for da rest of my pathetic life.

I may look happy on da outside..
But eu don noe wat im feeling inside.

Well dis is wat eu always wanted baby.
And im giving dis to eu.
I love eu..like so freaking much.
I guess eu don care uh..to eu it wuld jus be another lie.
LIES LIES LIES and more LIES!
Im a LIAR! Im sorry..
Misery is wat i feel now.

Him: After everything that we share. I dun wanna leave you but you always make things difficult for us. You take things for granted

Him: I dun wanna be hurt. And love is all about trust remember. Its not lying and stuffs like that.

Him: You had your many chances. Now you lost me. Wasted.

Him: I cant be in a relationship with someone i dun trust. And stop pushing it to the past. What you've done to me is overboard. I know now everything you say to me is a lie. I want it to end

My replies: =[ sob2....

Its da end.
I deleted eu off everything.

Hate me now!

5:10 am

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

nowadays im always waking up late.

then ken msg me i still sleeping

and ken is bored in school

and glennys is still sleeping like a small piggy on her bed.

and ken is typing this because he is bored

because glennys is still sleeping at home

hehehe

glenn wake upppppppp pls!!!! heh

9:10 am

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Sowie ppl..i haven got da tym to update me bloogy. Jus been busy dis past few days..
Firstly i jus wanna wish eu malays out der..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! hehe

Well..i heard alot of eu'll not in da mood to celebrate dis year. Hmm..Jus hav fun la dats da main thing rite. I mean how bad can it be..eu get food..and i mean lots of food hehe=] and olso money..see..its not dat bad!=]

Hi..hehe back to me. Hmm.. woke up late today as usual. Didnt eat and i was feeling so freaking hungry as usual too haha. Met up wid Kens mom at Taka to fetch his bro back home. Cheh..im his baby sitter seh haha..cool ah! LOL den we took a cab back home cus his bro prefered da cab LOL. It gave me a freaking headache. Cabs are a NONO for me.

So im lyk at his house now..no ones at home except me and his bro. His bro jus bought a $99.95 sword at Taka...haha cool ar! And he is playing wid it now LOL.. kla i noe im boring eu all wid dis stuffs dat eu'll don need to noe.. but its jus dat i don have anything to talk abt.

Hmm.. read someones blog jus now and read wat he said..hais..im sad=[ so sad. Why does it hav to be lyk dis. Im feeling all emoish abt it though..i noe it was da past..but i jus lyk read it and im feeling da pain. Argh..wtf! I don give a damn anymore wokey! I jus hope da pass will go away!

To all da guys who are out der reading dis.. let dis be my public announcement..

TO DA GUYS WHO NOES ME...
ATTENTION!!!

FUCK OFF!!.. SO I WULD REALLI APPRECIATE IT IF EU ALL WULD JUS LEAVE ME ALONE AND NOT BOTHER ME. JUS FORGET ME ALRITE. I DON WAN TO HAV ANYTHING TO DO WID EU'LL..IM SERIOUS HERE. JUS FUCK OFF AITE!!! THANKS!=]

Hmm..dats abt it i guess.. happy holidays ppl=]

Love me, hate me..argh wtf!

7:20 am