The perfect words never crossed my mind,
Cuz there was nothin' in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cuz I need you to guide me to safety.
No, I don't want to wait forever
In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.
No, I don't want to wait forever
I just came back home from a tiring day at school. Overall, my day went well. Cus there wasn't any mother tongue and maths! Wowwhee! Oh and speaking of tongue, i just got my tongue re-pierced(: greatness.
Haha, i was like doing it in the class when Naz told me she got an extra tongue stud so she decided to 'rent' it to me lol. Whutever that means?? Okay and everyone was like looking at me in class.haha. Zaf and Naz were so funny cus all they said to me was just to force it in and i couldn't even reply to them. Than finally i got it in. I didn't even have to force it. YEAH!
Its a friday and school was selling Nasi ayam. YESSS! Well it sells Nasi ayam every friday only. && so far it was the best food i've eaten for the past week during recess. I didn't get any proper meal for the whole week so it made my day ahhaha.
Im feeling hungry now. Pfffttt. Oh did i mention that i've been hungry for like almost every hour. Its terrible! I simply have to control my diet every time to maintain this size. LOL. Whutever haha. Fat is ugly! Thin is FUGLY.....
Okay i can't wait for prom. I just paid for it...EXCITING! Okay here's something i find attractive.
Yes something yellowishy.
&& yes i LOVE the florals too!
Im going off to work soon.
Scrubby scrubby soon!
♥ Dior dior!
2:06 pm
HI! HI! *giggles*
See here's the thing
We have to take our clothes off
We have to party all night
And we have to take our clothes off
To have a good time
Got chicks, all hot chicks
Indie-rock chicks, and hip-hop chicks
Slim chicks, round chicks
Black, white, yellow, and brown chicks
Got chicks, all hot chicks
Indie-rock chicks, and hip-hop chicks
Slim chicks, round chicks
Black, white, yellow, and brown chicks
Is this song cool or whut!
Okay its from Gym Class Heroes and i know someone who is crazy about them lol.
This is called 'clothes off' okay!
I don't mind going to their concert too. To have a good time (: lol. silly me.
Hmm...so im slowly getting on with life pretty fine. Its almost been two weeks and im still going strong (: Well we do have to get on with our lives right. WE can't always hold on to the past. Yes there has been the good times as well as the bad times.
To me it hurts thinking about both the good and bad. So i'll end up not thinking about nothing.
Its better that way. Im not really emotionally strong inside. And that kinda sucks. Pfffttt. I think i rather prefer letting everything go here. Fuck, i hate getting my heart broken. And it hurts. Boy! it hurts alot. I've been crying till there's no more tears left and sometimes i think to myself, whether it's worth it. And i guess not.
But here's something i know, I've been dealing with this real well and i shan't make the same mistake in life again. Actually, i just wanted to be appreciated. hmph. Is that so difficult.
I've not been having enough sleep by the way haha. And i don't mind actually. Well if its worth staying up late to i don't mind hehe(: DIOR DIOR! Okay......you get what i mean.
Chips seems to be the perfect chill out spotv now. And i can't wait to just waste time there again.
I was trying to keep myself awake the whole day today. I had this malay talk after school and it was alright except that it got a little whiny and draggy. I was blinking all the time and i didn't laugh much at his silly jokes whereas, the whole class was enjoying it. Bleh!
Got home after that and WHAM PAO! I was knocked out. I fell straight to bed. Woke up and felt as if i had too much to drink last night but not. Head was heavy but im okay now(: Smile smile!
The girls in my class has been talking about what prom dresses they are all gonna wear and im kinda excited for that too. Someone said i should wear something that shows off my legs hahahah. Funny shit. But i'll think about it. Okay, NO BLACK for me. (: And Naz is getting Aldo heels. I so want to get it too! Woah!
I can't wait for tomorrow(: Hope it turns out perfect. hahah. Cherios amigos.
♥DIOR!
9:17 pm
The arctic monkeys.
You used to get it in your fishnets
Now you only get it in your night dress
Discarded all the naughty nights for niceness
Landed in a very common crisis
Everything's in order in a black hole
Nothing seems as pretty as the past though
That Bloody Mary's lacking a Tabasco
Remember when he used to be a rascal?
Oh that boy's a slag
The best you ever had
The best you ever had
Is just a memory and those dreams
Not as daft as they seem
Not as daft as they seem
My love when you dream them up...
Flicking through a little book of sex tips
Remember when the boys were all electric?
Now when she tells she's gonna get it
I'm guessing that she'd rather just forget i
Clinging to not getting sentimental
Said she wasn't going but she went still
Likes her gentlemen to not be gentle
Was it a Mecca Dobber or a betting pencil?
Falling about
You took a left off Last Laugh Lane
You just sounded it out
You're not coming back again.
Woah. That song has been stuck in my head for quite some time now.
And there's no doubt that if they ever come to Singapore, I'll bloody go to their concert(:
Anyway, School has been boring. As usual. Had my health checked up today. And shucks i have to have shots at the centre. Cus i kinda missed my last booster. And i HATE injections. ahh.
My manager has been a real idiot okay. sheesh. And im finding some people a real fucktard. Gosh! Get a life bitches. Argh!
Im hungry now and im having mood swings soon. HAHAH.
LOL. Hot fuzz here i come. Pffttt.
♥wawaweewa
3:40 pm
Welcome to fug blog bitches.
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...
Busy busy busy. I have been busy fixing my life and busy with my pathetic job.
I finally got back my phone too(: I was suppose to collect it in 3 working days time, but instead i collected it like 5 days later cus i was caught up with work and havent got the time. Omg! It felt terrible without my hp. Imagine the loneliness. Pffttt.
FRIDAY! Okay, so after work, met up with Vanessa, Bryo, Rudy and some other people who's names i don't even know at Home club. Got in for free. lol okay. Had a little too much too drink too hahaha. Everything was like there, in front of you. You obviously can't help but drink some of it right? LOL.
Okay so i felt terrible after that. Like WTF! I didn't know i got drunk haha. And so, Vanessa, Bryo and Janine shared the cab and Van took me back home to her place.
All i could remember was vomiting alot and it felt as if the world was spinning. Bleh!
The next morning, vomited again like FUCK. haha. Went back home once i felt better than headed to Zouk SATURDAY night. For free too, Ya like i noe. Madness! I think it was Siren or something.
Anyways, was there with Aniss, met a couple of familiar faces here and there. Shuffling hahaha total geekness. Okay, clubbed till 6 than took the cab back home. Didn't drink that day cus i was still feeling a lil bit tipsy. But all was good(:
So Sunday, was practically just slacking at home. Used my laptop but didn't have the time to blog. Was just feeling sucky that school has to start so soon. Pfft.
So that's how my week went. Nothing much to say already except that i've been starving myself lately. Didn't have the mood to eat or something like that. Pffttt go figure. And im starting to thing my fringe is growing and soon it'll be covering my eyes. Hahah. Yeah, go figure this yourself too. hahahaha. Okay, wait, this is going wait out of hand. I starting this whole crazy talk.
And today is total boredom! YAWN!
Shan't elaborate further.
Time table for this semster SUCKS!
Okay, im going to work soon.
There's something wrong with my bluetooth device so i'll postpone updating the pictures taken.
Be gone now.
P.S.. BAN! Your an ass hahaha. Joking babe!
♥ Wawaweewa
2:35 pm
The best thing is that today would be the second last month and we'll be together for 2 whole years. Some things are just better left unsaid.
Im having a bad bad bad horrible tummyache. And so im just chilling at home for the rest of the day. Anyways, i have not been working for the past 3 days, been heading to town, the malls with gf's and long-time-no-see-friends. Chilled with Mary, Vanessa and a whola lotta gang outside FarEast, threw jokes at each other, lame ones and some racist stuffs. Definately laughed our bootys off.
Yesterday yesterday, all my trouble seemed so far away.. NOT!
Okay, so i had my hair cut at Tony and Guy.. suddenly i became one of the directors model and i couldn't say no and said YES to everything without actually thinking about it carefully. I'll prolly let him noe sooner or later that i wouldn't want my hair to be tooooo short. Im not ready to say bye bye to my hair.....yet.
Okay, so i LOVE my hair and i find it cute. lol. I don't know but i've decided to get bangs. Yes straight as hell! I am so loving it. *wawawewa*
So back to my day, Mango was having sales and VIP were only allowed. They were like selling tight skinny jeans for like $45 i mean ahhhhhh! It comes in blue, purple, grey and black. Too bad im wiped out till the end of the month i guess.
Believe me, my pay sucks as much as my vacuum cleaner sucking up all my dirt. Yeah, that bad. Im dry...totally dry. Ever since i paid my 'debt' it left me a huge hole in my pocket.
So it's like almost been a month since i last watched something in the Cinema and it's making me really really sad. I think im the saddest girl now. I may look happy, but boy you don't know a damn thing about me. I hate this feeling to be honest, being sad, feeling like a piece of unwanted banana skin.pfft.
Well it's not only about not being able to go out to the movies but a whole lot of other craps. My love life has gone haywire. Sometimes i wanna stop it'all, sit, think and just rewind the whole god damn situation. I need a gun pointing straight at my head and once you pull that bloody trigger, BANG! my whole head explodes. That should do the trick. To make my life feel a whole lot better.
They tried to make me go to rehab but I said 'no, no, no'
Yes I've been black but when I come back you'll know know know
I ain't got the time and if my daddy thinks I'm fine
He's tried to make me go to rehab but I won't go go go
I would never go to a rehab. pfft. Im fine as hell.
Oh yeah, i couldn't sleep this past few days and i was stuck scribbling some stuffs on a random piece of paper on my bed while lying down in the wee hours of the morning. It kinda help me fall asleep better. Yeah, it did and it was a good way of releasing my stress too.
I miss my Hp, im only allowed to collect it tomorrow. In the late afternoon. Gosh.
...... i was watching oprah and this is what they said, you kinda died before you die cus they said, happiness is so important and if you don't have hapiness you kinda died before you die. So I guess im not that happy anymore. And i thought, that's exactly who i am.
I died before i die.
The man said 'why do you think you here'
I said 'I got no idea
I'm gonna, I'm gonna lose my baby
so I always keep a bottle near'
He said 'I just think your depressed,
kiss me here baby and go rest'
It's not just my pride
It's just 'til these tears have dried
I lost my baby.
a-woosh and gone so far far away!♥
2:46 pm
I was browsing through my myspce account and i found this.
Ken gave this to me one time one time we were quarrelling. And it brought tears into my eyes that things have to happen this way. Well it was always ME. My fault.
Things has to change now. Im sorry.
Feb 6, 2007 11:10 AM
hi baby! look its 2.54 at the moment i still cant sleep =(
im writing this to you here since its the only way i can contact my baby
i really need you now but you're so fast asleep. i wish i can watch you sleep. sighh
anyway glennys, can you PLEASEEEEEE show me some mercy. i know i can be very irritating and you're always so short of fuse. but can you stop lashing out on me like all the time baby please??
i mean you really do talk to me like you're soo sooo hate me. but you said you dunt. 5 mins before the fight you said you love me and that you miss me. then suddenly you'll go "eh you know wad, FUCK YOU LA KEN I NEED TO SLEEP LA BYE.. etc etc etc". baby it really hurts when you say all that you know?
etc.
well you can just tell me nicely that you promise you know how to react and that nothing will happen and all that. you would really make me feel happy. and in the end i wont talk abt it and then you'll be happy too. right baby?
baby all you need to do is just be a lil extra patient with me and talk nicely to me can?? it would really help both of us alot. you do love me right? baby you're not my enemy right?? then you shouldnt talk to me like you're my biggest hater in this world.
i know you dunt really care about being nice to me. i dunno why but i know you can choose to not give a fuck about me. you said its karma. because last time you were so nice and i wasnt.
maybe you're right darling. and for that i shall live up to this torture. i'll always stick to you no matter how much you keep this up. you can keep scolding me and hating me and all i'll still keep you in my heart cause i really feel that you're the one. im really sorry about the past. all i really want is for you to love me again like last time. i'll wait for the day my baby change to the old girl she was. you'll always be that sweet little angel thats closest in my heart. you can live without me. it shows. you wanted to break up many times with me without a second thought.but i cant live in this world without glennys. =( i need you with me.
i just hope you dunt take too long. cause it really hurts me alot when you talk like that to me. and baby dunt do stupid stuffs just because you're angry with me can?? baby cmon. i dunt even need to explain myself for that.
do me a favour and read this properly alright??
its 3.10 now. im sleepy =( call me baby i want to hear your voice. when you're reading this, do know that im at home thinking of you. please call, i want you to talk to me.
i'll always lovelovelovelovelovelove you
kennn
I don't have anything else to say. I'll leave it here.
.....a-woosh and going so far away! ♥
1:04 pm
Hello lonely world. Yes im back. Here, blogging again.
Stuffing my nose into piles and piles of tissue papers. Finally im here at home on my off day.
Ever since i've started work, there wasn't any time that i could use Mr Laptop.
My Grandmother kinda kept it in her room and for the past few days,
she has been out pretty much all the time.
My life couldn't be anyless boring. I come back home from work and i'll sleep till god knows when and when i wake up there would be no one at home and i'll head for work again.
Sheesh.
Anyway, so my week went out alright. I guess.
MONDAY got into my dancing shoes and boogied my way to MOS with Kenzee and Dan. Had a blast and a wacky good time. Made new friends. Well made friends with Danny Jackass's girlfriend. She was cool. What was her name?
Oh yeah, Nadia. Super hyper girl. lol.
There's Nadia and Me. sweet!
There were some default in the outing though. I kinda forgot my ic and they didn't accept Ez-link cards and it was like 11pm and we were lining up. And so thank god Daniel came to the rescue(: he drove us back to my place. Singapore road can be so complicated. pfft. Thanks DAN!
Im having a bad flu now. Kenzee is having one too. He must have gotten it from me yesterday.
Sorry B. So i guess he's at home resting. Poor thing. He was at my place before work yesterday and he was bugging me to make him a cup of hot tea but i was just too lazy to make one for him.
And i guess he got worst after that. Not forgetting the cold cold weather. hais.
So i'll be heading down to my work place later to collect my pay. And prolly have my Hp repaired.
So next week would be the last week of my June holiday and it'll be back to studying and mugging for the major paper. Argh! I hate exams. Please get me outta here!!!
Okay STOP! Way too much drama here.....
Better wish your Dad a...
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY(:
Okay although my Dad's working overseas, i'll be sending him something.
I think. lol. Have fun Daddy's all around. Pamper yourselves. Get all those expensive shavers and shoes (: be merry.
a-woosh and away! ♥
12:34 pm
Welcome to the Fug Blog, Bitch!
I get so irritated nowadays. Pfft. This sucks!
I think the ppl in my work place sucks. The manager sucks.
Well basically, my life sucks. You guys feelin' me.
I've been wanting to go to Sentosa but argh.. when when?? && there was so many Sentosa trips that had to be cancelled. Jeez. I hate it when that happens. Im working and yet im not busy! hmph! I still am able to squeeze in time. like whatever!
Anyway, Vanessa's working as an actress in the Musical fountain in Sentosa called the song of the sea. Cool uh! And she's giving me free flow of Musical fountain tickets (:
Can't wait to catch it with her and Kenzee this Thursday! && everyone has been talking about cafe del mar. Just have to wait and see it with my own eyes.
Saturday, visited Mary's place at Wham Poa. okay. Her house was like so far inside && i had to take a cab in. Cus i got off the wrong bus stop lol. And for once, i thought the cab was taking me some place else. lol. It kind of scared me for awhile. Silly me.
Sunday, was my off day. Been spending time with Kenzee around town. Oh && here's something funny. His mom told him to ask me to go over their house and pluck her moms white hair and she'll pay me 50 bucks on the spot. LOL.
Its hard to say no right! It was easy kaching! like come on(:
Hope she'll ask me to do it again.
Went shopping after that, he got me a dress and i got myself a dress too.
It was pretty(:
We had dinner at Pastamania. Ordered this Seafood linguini thingy and YUCKS!
The food tasted awful. You'll should never never eat that! It has like clams, prawns, squid in it. eeewwww! It looked appetising and all but i was wrong. They prolly just smeared the sauce on top of the linguini and tada! Here's your Pasta maddam. What a joke.
Oh so its going to rain now. && i'll be meeting my prince to have my Ericsson K800i checked.
It has not been behaving lately. && omg! Its suffering from bad sunburns. Pfft! And i was lucky enough to find the warranty card. I wonder if it's still valid.
I can't even log into Photobucket. What a bummer! Argh! I can't get into Myspace too!
Just my luck! Pfft. Kinda craving for Milkshakes now. Oh gosh! What to do, what to do?
I just gotta baboosh myself than.
Okay i'll upload some pictures once photobucket stops being a bitch!
Off to oompa loompa land!
FUGLY IS THE NEW PRETTY!
11:25 am
I scribble X and O's in my notebook
Checking how my hair and nails look
I feel myself in the zoneI get nervous when you call
So I say I'm not homeI see your face when I hear my favorite song
Should I Send an email at home
You're the number 1 topic on the phone,
I wonder if you know or do you have a clue
Ahh. It has certainly been awhile since i've touched my laptop.
My stinking brotha' has been using it by the way and i feel like stranggling him at times. Pfft!
So yeah, been pretty busy busy busy with school stuffs and WORK. Oh golly gosh gosh!
I barely have enough sleep this past few days and you'll soon see Miss Glennys the human Panda. haha. (:
Anyway my D&T artefact is really starting to bore me. I wanted to finish up my damn cheese flake dipenser like two days ago. But ahhhhhh i was to lazy! I didn't even attend any of my D&T lesson during the holiday pfft!
Okay. So a customer made my day today and gave good comments about me to my manager.
HAHA. && i hope to get a pay raise soon. LOL. I don't know when he's gonna do that but he promised me already. And i can't wait!
Prolly be going to Sentosa on Sunday with Vanessa and gang. Oh and I'll be meeting my long-time-no-see girlfren tomorrow before i start work.
Oh and i find this really cute.
What do you think??
a-woosh and away! ♥
1:04 am
Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Okay so a couple of stars are dropping by to have their live concert in this sunny island Singapore. Jet, Christina Aguilera, Micheal Bubbley...(spelling?)
But i can't wait for Arctic Monkeys to perform in Singapore. Ohh-whee!
Works been pretty fine.
My life hmm... never been sexier.
Still hate studying. Havent started on anything. Geez!
I need to fix my nails soon. Its starting to chip. lol.
Oh and im having an off day for three days hahah! sweeet!
&& Heard Pirates of the Carribean is so bloody boring.
Yeah Ken watched it and he said it sucks.
So i guess im just gonna slack around at home.
Watch stuffs on the telly and prolly gonna hit the sack.
I miss Kenzee!
He's having a headache. And he's having an exam tomorrow.
Good luck and please study now dear!
a-woosh and away! ♥
3:37 pm
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it,
And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…Never get enough,
He's the sweetest drug
And i can't believe Kenzee's little brotha would be singing this in his little pri school idol.
Wowwhee! Its past midnight and im here blogging away.
I just came back from work by the way.
It was stupid at first. Than i got used to it.
I was tempted to leave my uniform and quit the job on the spot during my 1 hour break.
It was Kenzee who gave me that idea. haha. (:
But nah... I guess not cus i didn't really handle much of the customers in the beginning that's why i found it such a drag. But later on,
taking orders are quite 'fun'. haha. and i managed to keep up my duty.
Boy my legs are aching badly. I need a foot massage now!
Thanks to Kenzee who fetched me after work. I felt quite relaxed. I missed him the entire day!
Im working tomorrow again.geez.
Well 4-5 hours of work aint too bad right. Or else i have to find someone to donate their legs to me. hardy-ha-ha.
Anyway, i was so tempted to eat the oysters at the cafe just now. omg.
Maybe i'll have those some other day.
Talking about that yummylicious looking oysters.
Im so hungry right now.
My stomache has been moaning and groaning for the past hour.
But its okay. I can go without food for quite some time.
And...
I can't even log in to my msn account.
Boring shit.
Looks like im not attending my extra D&T lesson in school tomorrow.
8am in the morning. Gosh! I wont be able to get up.
I won't have enough sleep by than too.
So im cancelling it. teehhhh!
My back's aching now.
I think i probably have done some serious damage.
Ouch! hurting...yes right behind.
Oh here's something to tickle wickle your mind to end my blabberrings.
If yeaterday had been wednesday's tomorrow and tomorrow is sunday's yesterday, what would today be?
Do tag my board if you got the answer or if your interested what the answer is.
I love Kenzee!
a-woosh and away! ♥
12:51 am
IM.GLENNYS♥
